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Father [31 Aug 2009|01:00pm]
He holds tighter to me in protection than I could ever cling to him in fear.

(i love you.)

caterers [19 Feb 2009|03:56pm]
Hey, I posted about a week or so ago about caterers/event centers for a banquet, and someone helped me out a lot on the place we ended up booking (www.stokelyeventcenter.com).
We're still needing a caterer though, and I'm not from here, so I don't really know a lot at all about what's good/less expensive. Someone recommended Ti Amos, but I think it's pretty far over our budget. I've also heard of a lot of people getting Zio's, but I don't ever hear very good things about their catering.
We're looking mostly at Italian because it's something most people will eat, but if you have other suggestions, they would be reeeally appreciated.
Also, it's on a Sunday, so I don't know if that's an issue. We're just looking to do carry-out catering, not full service or drop off.
Thanks so much!

(i love you.)

[15 Jun 2008|12:18am]
happy father's day!
when jacob got in the car this morning, he smelled just like dad and i started crying. it smelled good. it was the smell of old alcohol, cigarette smoke, and cologne, but it smelled so good. i miss him. i love my dad. i loooove him. i wish i could hug him and smell him and kiss him and hear his voice and rub his scruffy face and get tickled and sit at city stages with him like we used to. i just want him. God is so good to give me peace.

(i love you.)

[28 Apr 2008|07:32pm]
This week has been really hard. I feel like I've been pouring myself into my babygirl so she won't turn out like everyone else and it's all fallen on deaf ears. I love her so much and I want her to end up in God's will and not in this downward spiral she's going in. I really want her to do better. Please pray even though you probably don't know who/what I'm talking about. I'm afraid I don't totally know what to do.

(i love you.)

[20 Feb 2008|05:19pm]
The other night I had this crazy dream that I was living through the apocalypse. One night, I was lying under the stars with some guy I liked, my boyfriend or something, then all of a sudden the stars all started falling out of the sky. It was the craziest thing I've ever dreamed. Apparently he had a little sister or something and the bad guys were trying to kidnap her so we had to keep running to protect her. I don't remember how it ended. I woke up.

In other news, winter camp this year was the best we've ever had. I hate going back to school after something like that. It was so awesome.

(6 kissed my cheek. | i love you.)

[24 Jan 2008|11:22pm]
i need to get away from here so i can grow up. i'm scared about going away for college, but i know if i didn't, i would stick with most of the same people and keep being really dependent and would grow up the same way as everyone else around here and not the way God wants to grow me up. also, i keep having really irrational thoughts or wanting to do stupid things i know i would regret, just because they're the things to do in high school. i don't really want to do those things, they just keep popping into my head. i'm totally against the whole "this is what high school kids are supposed to be like" mentality, but i'm afraid, if given the proper situation, i won't do what i need to do. that's why i need to grow up. and i need to learn to be a better writer because i suck at writing. that's all.

(i love you.)

[22 Jan 2008|09:58pm]
every time i see that someone has died, i wait to hear that it was a joke or a rumor or a lie.
i wish no one ever died.

(5 kissed my cheek. | i love you.)

[22 Jan 2008|01:22am]
I want to sit at your feet,
Drink from the cup in your hand,
Lay back against you and breathe,
Feel your heartbeat.
This love is so deep;
It's more than I can stand.
I melt in your peace;
It's overwhelming.

Everything is so hard. I don't know what to do.


(5 kissed my cheek. | i love you.)

[27 Dec 2007|01:04pm]
merry Christmas and happy new year!

(i love you.)

[10 Sep 2007|12:19am]
[ mood | sleepy ]

some people I just don't want to be around...

other than that, I am alive and my life is blessed. I'm just trying not to rush it, which is hard. I want to be out of here, but I know there's something for me here until it's time to move on. patience.

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
Jeremiah 29:11

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heyyy I need help with someone [26 Dec 2006|03:03pm]
hey everybody! it's been forever since I've posted on here, I just get super busy and blah blah. anyway...Christmas was yesterday and it was really good because I love Christmas, but I hate that it's over because that means people will take down all the lights and decorations and school will start really soon and ugh. But it was an awesome Christmas time.

I have my science fair junk due when school starts back (January 8th) and I need to use a bunch of people for it. It would be so awesome if you live around Birmingham and have finished prealgebra (you probably took it in 8th grade)if you could help me out. I just need you to do some math problems (some people will get to watch Arrested Development or listen to music) and then meet me at the library to take a test. It shouldn't take more than 2 total hours but it'll be on 2 different days. It would be so so so awesome if you can help me and I'll give you a surprise if you do. Just comment or email me (youhadapassion@yahoo.com). Thanks!

And I hope everyone had an awesome Christmas!
God blessss you.

(i love you.)

[08 Apr 2006|02:14pm]
I went to a funeral this morning for a boy at my school who killed himself Monday. I didn't know him. I didn't remember ever seeing him. He was one of Yuki's best friends at school. They said that it was suicide, but that it was likely accidental. I felt so bad for Yuki...it was his first funeral to go to. He kept saying how unfair it was and he thought Bryant had such a nice life. Apparently, he was really good at basketball. From what people said, even though they always say the nicest things at funerals, I wish I'd known the kid. He was a year younger than I am, but he sounded pretty cool. I cried a lot. The people there were mostly black and I like the way they do their funerals. People, mostly young people, got up to talk about what they remembered about him. His parents talked and they were so positive. No one really talked about how difficult it is that he's gone, but about how good his life was.

RIP Bryant Colin Stokes

Now may the Lord of peace himself give you peace at all times and in every circumstance. The Lord be with all of you.
1 Thessalonians 3:16

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:) [23 Mar 2006|02:10am]
These have been good days.
My heart's pretty full of joy.
I don't want to be complacent. I'd like to start a revolution without being a hero or a villain.

You are the most excellent of men
and your lips have been anointed with grace,
since God has blessed you forever.

Psalms 45:2
It'll be a while.

Thanks, God, for getting me going.

He gives power to the faint and weary, and to him who has no might He increases strength.
Isaiah 40:29

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RECAP of the last 3 months, Mexico, and a survey. [04 Mar 2006|03:24pm]

So...everything's good. Last night, after eating a bacon cheeseburger and fries from Al's, I rolled off to the gnome village and the Highland Park area with my buds. I was itchy, which I thought had come from the numbing coldness. We explored the region immensely for a little over an hour. Well, before leaving to take my pal Millissa home by her curfew time, and then planning to go to Jeff's to hang out, we stopped to get gas. While pumping, I noticed that I had hives ALL OVER my body...everywhere. It was disgusting and itchy and miserable. I have never had an allergic reaction in my whole life. I took Millissa home and called my mom to wake her up. Upon arriving home she saw how bad it was and we went to the emergency room (my first time, yay!!). They have NO idea what caused it, but I remember taking a pill and getting 2 shots and then waking up during another shot. We left at about 2:30 from the emergency room and I also don't remember the ride home at all. I slept until 1 o'clock.
I live such an action packed life.

mexico+surveyCollapse )

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I'm going to Mexico. [12 Dec 2005|10:31pm]
Hey-I am just going to be completely honest with all of you-there is nothing that even compares to how amazing God is.
I have a really, really amazing story...that might not be quite as amazing to everyone as it is to me, but it really is awesome.

God has just been really putting things into place for me in a way like I have never known.
I've had a huge passion in my heart to go somewhere and do mission work for the past few months, and I've waited for the right opportunity.
Yesterday, I was at my aunt's house with Kayla and Seth invited us to church. If I hadn't already been on 280, I wouldn't have gone because it's far. So we went and had amazing worship, I love my church's worship, but something new really woke me up. The service was great, and they talked about the mission trip to Mexico over Christmas. The second that he said they were still taking people and it was $400...Kayla and I pretty much freaked out. I asked my mom about it and she said no because of money and because I'd be out of the country on Christmas. Well, I really just started praying for the money (it's tight right now, especially at Christmas) and for my mom to have peace. Well today I found out that COTH has a payment plan for it, but they also said something about not worrying about the money. Either way-it's provided. And then tonight, while I was on my way home, without having talked to my mom about it again, my mom called me and said "If you feel like God wants you there, I want you to go." To be completely honest with you, I don't know if I've ever felt so much peace and so much love in my heart. I really couldn't contain myself.
It's so amazing to know that you're right smack in God's will. I haven't second guessed a single thing about this trip and usually I'd have so many reservations about such a big thing. Faith is beautiful.

everything else is good too.

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And I fear what I've done means I've lost what I love. [05 Dec 2005|06:00pm]

This past weekend was really wonderful, quiiite wonderful. My good pal Corey came from Tupelo so that he could sleep on my futon and watch Walk the Line and hang out and stuff, of course.
I've had so much fun hanging out with people lately. I saw Tommy Ace and we hung out and talked and he bought me a chai eggnog latte. It was nice.
However, I'm also getting really bogged down with worry for people. I haven't been doing my part as a friend to pray for what people need. I love my friends (you guys) so much. I'm just scared that people don't know how serious all the things they're messing with are. I'm praying that kids stop letting habits get bigger than relationships.
All day, alll day I've had Wild Sweet Orange floating through my head.

God is so great. Tonight he put a lot of people on my heart. I feel a lot better now than I did. He takes a lot of weight off of my shoulders. God's refreshing me-he's refreshing us all. It's amazing. He's showing us what we've been missing out on. He showing us what he's got for us. We've just gotta be patient. He wants our hearts-he doesn't just want a little piece either, he wants it all. Be careful how you give it away.
old picutres-Thanksgiving!!Collapse )

Love you guys!
Happy Holidays/Merry Christmassss!

(9 kissed my cheek. | i love you.)

What's bugging my heart out: [14 Nov 2005|10:01pm]
I want to be able to control what people feel.

That is the creepiest thing I've ever said, I think.
I've got the most horrible timing, and I'm never the right one.
I can't seem to find the right one.
But I'll find him, and it'll be at the right time, and I'll be the right one.
And...it'll be better than ever.

I'm gonna be patient. I'm good at it.

Many are the plans in a man's heart, but it is the LORD's
purpose that prevails.

-- Proverbs 19:21

Peace out, fellas.

By the way, Coldplay-Scientist keeps playing on my iTunes, which happens to be the most inappropriate song for what's on my mind.
Thanks, iTunes.
And...I'm feeling really good right now. Jesus gives such awesome peace.

(27 kissed my cheek. | i love you.)

[06 Nov 2005|02:57pm]
[ mood | uncomfortable ]

This is how I'm feeling as of right now:
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That's about all. I want to stab myself through the eye a little bit.

I don't know what's up, man.

(11 kissed my cheek. | i love you.)

Two posts in a week, what am I thinking? [02 Nov 2005|04:28pm]
20 people you can think right off your head dont read the questions underneath 'til you think of those 20 people!

1. Mallory
2. Kayla
3. Jason
4. Millissa
5. Dasha
6. Yuki
7. Ryan V.
8. Jacob
9. Josh C.
10. Matt D.
11. Sam G.
12. Kate
13. Brent
14. Jason Scuba
15. Zack
16. Jenna
17. Mary
18. Tommy
19. Luke
20. Daniel T.
21. Courtney Moore
Wheeee! 1st 20 people!Collapse )

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hasljghlsahgjhi [29 Oct 2005|01:01am]
For the past 2 weeks, I haven't been able to label how I feel. That's because I'm crazy.

I was Raggedy Ann tonight. I went to the movies. Tomorrow, I make crafts.

One day, I'll do something a little more productive...on the scale between making crafts and writing a novel series that is converted into film format.
I'm gonna be busy.

Jesus loves you!!

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